Meet the Family

Alright well most people know I have sisters but they are shocked when I tell them that my parents have five daughters. I'm stuck right in the middle of all of them. The older two are Bethany (20) and Faith (19) the younger two are twins Kara, pronounced car-ra, and Karissa (15). To be honesty I don't talk to them much. I prefer to be away from home at this age but I get along alright with them. I mainly argue with Faith only because we have conflicting personalities. Bethany is very reserved and extremely smart. She has always and a 4.0 and I'm constantly being compared to her and being held up to her standards. Faith is the wild one she tends to do what she wants and never thinks about the consequences of her actions. With her examples I can tell you it isn't a smart thing to do. The twins are just alike not only when it comes to looks but in the personality department as well. They tend to listen and rarely voice their own opinions. They are followers. In some ways I wish I could do that but I can't it just isn't me.
I don't know what I would do if I only had one sister or if I only had two of them. I can't even imagine how different things would be. I take them for granted everyday and I suppose it is because the frustrate me sometimes then again they have taught me many things and have shared many great experiences with me. They are my best friends because they can't ever leave me no matter what I do. Knowing that I tend to take most of my anger out on them and I regret that. Even though I am rude to them and we don't always get along I love them dearly and wouldn't trade them for anything.

Mondays

Mondays always mean the end of a weekend but I try not to think that way anymore. I'm starting to think that Monday is the beginning of a new week and everything that happened last week has become a part of the past. This is part of me trying to let things go and worry less about the past and focus more on what is happening now. It is quite the challenge I constantly find myself obsessing over how I could have done something changed the way I did something and wondering what if things had happened differently. You can't just quit something all together. This will be a long process that's for sure.

My Saturday Evening

Well, I haven't been home on a Saturday night in quite a while. Tonight I've been laying in my room listening to music. Right now I'm listening to various John Mayer songs. I haven't listened to him and I have realized how much I miss it. His music always puts me in a good mood. Also I like his lyrics. For some reason I find myself able to relate to most of his songs. For every song I can think of an experience I have had and I seem to go back to that time. It has caused me a lot of thinking. There are so many events I wish I could go back and repeat. Then again there are those times that I want to go back and change things I've done. Through all my thinking it has been decided that I over think. I don't need to worry about what has happened or what will happen I should just go with the flow. But how do I go about doing that? This is what I hope to find out. Hopefully the answer comes soon. All I know is I need to quit worrying about the past and future and live fully in the present.

Who I'm most like.

I'm more like my dad in my family. We both have dark hair and green eyes. We have the same personality type as well. Both of us are sociable people and we have type a personalities. Just like my dad I like for my things to be organized and for tasks to be done a certain way. My dad's parents notice how similar we act and that I even posses some of his mannerisms like using my hands when I speak and how I seem to day dream a lot through out the day. I used to go around denying that I'm anything like my dad but the more I think about it the more I can see how similar we are. I have been told many of times that I am my father's daughter and I will probably hear it many more times.

Family

Family to me is a group of people that I can be myself around and not worry about what they think about me. A family is also a support system, no matter what you do you can always count on your family to be there for you. You can tell your family things that you can't tell other people. A bond is also shared in a family, you feel connected to those people and love and care for them. I love my family because I have wonderful parents and four amazing sisters.My role in my family is the listener. I listen and advise my sisters and sometimes my parents. They come and tell me a lot of things although sometimes I don't want to hear them. I'm glad they tell me though because it makes me feel like I am an essential part to our family and that I'm needed in their lives.